Sunday, October 4, 2015

A come back and "The Hercule Poirot " madness

 Ohhh Yeah!!! I am back again after many years .

After a lot of contemplation , I chose to unwind myself. I have realized  in a bitter way that holding on to the daily 'roller coaster rides ' will not help in moving on.
Okay ! So there I start to unwind ..........

I admit that even at the age of 32 (Infact a few more days are still left for me to turn to 32) I love reading Agatha Christie ,especially Poirot. It's actually a re- reading, a particular relaxation procedure I have become addicted to,  say, very recently. I love stacking all these collections on the book shelf which has been gifted by my sis-in law and admire the frame from a photographer's angle (I doubt!!!)

After some time I dwelve in to the thoughts like how would a lady in those ages think of such crime plots , very romantic and artistic, and why am I even unable to guess anything regarding the " so called murderers or the guilty".

It is infact really intruguing and I very much want to speak to Agatha Christie's Spirit . I have a hell lot of questions to her and I need the answers badly, really badly. Whether the crimes were so frequent during her period and whether  people just schemed and plotted these murders , (Really brilliant plots, I must say) and was it all about inheritance they cared about mostly and the Question  list continues........

Still I go a step further by watching Poirot's video series and get amused every second by David Suchet's acting skills.Next, i re-read the novel of the video I had just watched and let myself enjoy by visualising the characters and relates each and every gesture, action etc of Poirot  with that of the great actor David Suchet. The saga continues....and I mix these with Miss Marple videos as well.

The most irritating thing (of course, As per my husband) I did was making my hubby darling get  the cartons with these books which was stored in the topmost storage space of his study  and searching frantically among the books with the whole Poirot list. I even made my hubby buy me the few novels which i did not have in the collection.

If I just look back , 2 months back, to be precise , I used to watch " Sarabhai vs Sarabhai" in hot star to unwind myself and then  as usual used to think on how they acted so naturally with all the sarcasm and humour.

Right now I am still under the Poirot spell and I presume that the madness may continue for sometime unless otherwise I get to speak to Christie's Spirit in my dream very soon.

Dear  Monsieur Poirot,  If you had really existed and was alive  now you would have been delighted to know that another more person had become your fan and talks of ,as you say,  "The Hercule Poirot"!!!!



Wednesday, November 4, 2009

Well..again i don't know why i thought of posting a new one.As usual i am confused again ....directionless....cursing myself for the decision i took....Yet..i am happy...it's a secret,which even my conscious mind doesn't know......Yes.....i found that out yesterday..i am happy..just like how i used to be during those good old days..i was laughing again ,started my chirpy talks and outings with friends....but somehow my face is projecting a sad image,as that of a lady who is away from her love and who is presently going through a big emotional trauma......why?why?why?
I can't say i don't know now,b'coz i know .I know that i am afraid to reveal my happiness ,i am afraid that this happiness is going to be a short lived one,i am afraid that this happiness will make me mad.......
What a human being i am....to be sad when you are really happy.......
Its true...our wants will never end ....am so greedy.................
To be independent,when you have the option to be dependent is a very good feeling.You get all theose chances to enjoy..still....you miss something...For me,I miss Shyam...the one vital person in my life.What confuses me is that i am happy enjoying my independence,although his absence is making me feel an emptiness inside.Can i not have Shyam and independence together in my life????
This,am posting from my bank and am doing this as if i am doing a crime...ohhhh....

Wednesday, July 15, 2009

Life has its own course......

There are times when you feel like staying away from acquaintances and stick to a few of your close friends.This is the best time to look inward and know yourselves.
But now time has come for me to come out of that shell of mine and interact with the world around me.After 2 long years ,i got a break,from a house wife to a working woman.Again this time also ,it is not what i had wanted all these years.But i have no choice,or,maybe its just that i don't want to choose from many available options.
I wanted to be in a middle state ,that of a working woman who can manage her home very well.But now i am away from my home,still searching for a balance.
I don't even know whether i want to mother a child now or not......am so indecisive.....
There was a time when i had wanted so many things ,a time when i was very ambitious and creative,but its a different life now.Yet i chose this life,i arranged this life,and am trying to cope with a life which has given me all essentials...I am not complaining but i can't help using the word 'cope',b'coz that's what i am doing now.
Even then i am not sure....whether i will be happy when i achieve that middle state...am so greedy....Ohhh!!!! God,Why am i so greedy?Why did you instill greed and selfishness in to my mind...?????

Monday, May 4, 2009


When did i really start watching sunsets????I don't know ..... I always found myself lost in thoughts while watching the setting sun...the vermilion hue ,grading in to lighter colours and finally vanishing in to the horizon....
The setting sun always asked me to wait for a bright tomorrow,and made me review the past and myself.I feel as if He is trying to teach me the greatest lesson of life ......whatever you loose today will re-appear again tomorrow,you will get all those bright things you had lost once and this cycle repeats,you only have to acknowledge the brightness...
Here in Hyderabad , I could bear solitude only b'coz of Sunsets...The weekday evenings of Hyderabad are the most beautiful episodes of my life.............................gazing outside from my balcony,watching the beautiful sunset ,sipping a cup of tea and above all freeing thyself in the process.....

Sunday, November 16, 2008

Thoughts......

It seems like November is the month of migration.......Changes,transition etc...
After all , change is inevitable in life.....

I have been thinking a lot about my life these days...infact i have been getting rather pessimistic.....
Now it is clear to me that, what i want is something in between being an independent modern day working woman and a house wife....i had tasted each one ,but not both together....
Harmony will only come when i acheive this middle state.Though not as a compromise....

Friday, April 11, 2008

The Couple

Their life is so different,linked with the lives of many.The family is complete..a husband,a wife and 2 kids-a boy and a girl.Yet, they are not.......they don't fit in a group,they can't adjust in a group.They appear to be compromising,yet,they are not.....
Am i analysing them?Am i analysing their life????No..I should not,i should not judge people,Who am i to judge them?